hais.. i juz post in my blog.. after posting it.. i suddenly feel down.. mani mge keep running in my mind.. the pressue my parents r giving.. and wat ethan told me on the presentation day... ytd in sch i nv tok.. i was lyk reallii feeling damn down.. i juz wanna say thanks to my tat brunch of monkey ite friends hu tried to make my smile n luagh.. guys.. thx.. holiday le.. but guess wat.. hais.. i still haf to go to the office n do work.. wa lao. im alreadii under alot of stress.. ustill wan me go.. i juz wanna stay at hm n relax.. or go out with whoever i dun care.. juz wanna get my ass outta the house to destress.. juz wanna accompany wendy bro c0z she is feeling down.. hais... monday haf to hand in the mtv mini project.. den haf to rush ethan's flash n 1 more of his thing thing.. tat day went to staff room.. saw miss ellya table gt a book there.. hafing my mom's hp number. i dunn0 wat she told my mom. might b bad stuff about me.. there is n0 gd stuff from me de. i wanted to as miss ellya wat she told my mom. but.. i dun dare ask.. c0z i scared she angry... s0 i juz act to b happii all the way home.. reach my room den i shut myself up!.. dun wanna knoe wats happen at hm.. c0z i dun feel lyk knoeing.. y my parents r lyk tat ?.. gt thing also dun wan tell me.. go overseas dun even wanna tell me.. where is my respect ?.. if u guys dun respect me.. den watz the point i respect u guys ?.. hais... presentation is very stressful.. ethan expect alot from us.. miss ellya also expect alot from me.. yet.. i still disappoint them.. blame myself for breing lazy.. but.. itz nrt reallii lazy.. my thyriod condition is stable.. and my body needs alot of rest.. yet there is presentation n stuff lyk tat.. den i haf fallen sick... yet i still stay overnight to finish up.. hais... y parents aways dun understand hw much we suffered ?.. i told them i say i dun wan go out and eat.. m staying at home n do projects.. den they say (project project project!.. in this whole world onli u 1 person gt project~.. the rest dun haf... ) -> tatz hurting... we r suffering.... they dun understand.. den my grandma say.. (c lar~.. SICK alreadii lar.. whoele night dun slp.. chat chat chat online!) i wanted to explian.. and she keep nagging.. den 4get it.. i dun wish to explian further.. n0 point.. sometimes i juz feel lyk throwing all my projects at their face n show them hw much effort we put in.. n wat we haf gone thru.. if they think itz ez to do.. DEN LET THEM DO MY PROJECTS FOR ME!.. u think we wan to get sick meh?.. u think we dun wan to slp meh?.. we all trying very hard to finish up project s0 we can slp.. stay up late in sch till 9pm juz to do my 3D projects.. u think fun meh?.. u think i wan s0 late reach hm meh?.. reach hm late means missbehave ar?.. wa lao.. y i dun wan do it home.. c0z my com is lagging!.. understand ?.. i always wanna ask u wanna i can upgrade my ram anot.. but since when u r gifing me time to explain ? i wanan upgrade my ram backup my projects n reformat my whole bloodly com s0 itz can b faster.. n wilfred com is lyk itz completely n0 hope.. den u buy him a s0 gd 3D graphic card for wat?.. might as well gif me use.. i dun care later i gonna explian everything to u.. 3D graphic card i nd it nt for games but for my projects.. happy?.. my bro juz say i wan a better graphic card c0z i wanna play game.. str8 away get him 1.. wa piangs..i juz keep quiet onli.. my graphic card is build in de lors.. den i took my bro's hard dish also.. c0z my harddisk almost full liao.. now i juz g0 msn my com lagging lyk n0body other bussiness.. fug it man.. my speaker also spoil.. i alos took my bro speaker n use.. i dun wan u all waste money on my computer things.. i can take frm my bro fc0z his computer die le... graphic ard i alos took his.. i juz wanna upgrade ram.. den can use this graphic card liao.. upgrade ram n reformat my pc.. s0 it can b faster den i transfer back my projects.. im gonna let my dad knoe.. i open 1 photoshop alreadii lag lyk shit.. dun say i still haf to d0 flash.. more lag lors.. ><><>
ciaox....
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